Getting Antsy

This seems to be a growing theme for me lately. Maybe because this is pretty much the first time since I was 4 that I haven't been in school. Maybe because this is the first time since I can remember that I'm not in a "stage" of life with a clearly defined end point and distinct "next step." Life in the so-called real world and my big girl job doesn't have a graduation ceremony or a predictable time frame. High school was 4 years. College 4 years. (Unless you go for round 2, like someone you know). If you move somewhere for college, you get a free pass to move again, anywhere you want, after 4 years or so. You have the chance to make big life decisions, big moves, big changes without major repercussions. Again, clearly defined stages, steps, progressions. Umm, real world, where are these laid out in your plan?

All I know is that I'm getting antsy. I think for me, grad school has never really been a matter of IF I will go, but rather WHEN I will go and FOR WHAT. This is still the question, but I'm wanting to know the answers more and more these days. I like what I'm doing right now, for now. Being a nurse in the ER has major pros and just as big cons. This can be said of any job I'm sure. Really this antsy feeling doesn't have too much to do with what I'm doing right now, where I'm living, or how I'm liking it. Maybe it has more to do with the fact that I need something specific to work towards? Or because I need to be pushing myself more? Or I get bored way too easily and change my mind way too often?

Regardless, the three letters GRE have been running through my mind over and over lately. Maybe I should just take the dang test now? That way when this antsy side of me starts to take over, I'll be ready for the "next step." Ha. Next step.