that's what stands between me and graduation. in minutes. this also translates to...
one month.
2,628,000 seconds.
30 days.
one HUGE test.
8 clinical days.
a million frustrating school employees.
and one impossible clinical instructor.
today is a good day, in that it marks the beginning of the end of all of this. for fear of being permanently labeled a "negative nancy" or "debbie downer" or some other equally lame and non-positive name, i hesitate to vent yet again. but i'm doing it anyways.
i am so far beyond frustrated with my school, the administration, and circumstances beyond our control. it is hard to remain positive when our hands are tied and there's nothing we can do to change situations that desperately need changing. and yes, my attitude stinks now. it does, i know. but regardless, i'm discouraged. and still have a lot to deal with. also, i'm applying for jobs, trying to figure out where i'll be next year, and basically just having a bad attitude.
so here's where the request comes in. a request i don't often make. prayer. pray that i don't explode. and don't blow up on these ridiculous people. ha. kidding...kinda. but really. i'm stressed, even if it is overreacting. and i'm just overwhelmed. i need to do well on this test, i need to feel at peace about career decisions, i need to know the best ways to handle situations with difficult people in positions of power, i need an attitude adjustment, i need direction, i need...
i don't know what i need. what we need. what my class of 34 needs. all i know is what we don't need. and that's anymore barriers. or disrespect. or discouragement. or this school.
one month. dear lord, one month.
4 comments:
Hang in there Jess. You can do it. You know it, we know it and God knows it! Have faith.
I know it can be frustrating, but you are almost done. You have accomplished so much in such a short time and you should be proud. I will be praying for you and that God will give you a peace of mind and give you a clear answer as to where you are to go next.
You can do it! I will be praying for you. You've actually been on my heart a lot lately. Remember the Lord is faithful! He alone will give you the strength, encouragement, peace, diligence you need for this last month.
Can't wait to see you when it's all done! Love you!
Jessica! You are sooooo close! You can do it! Can't wait to have you live closer!! :)
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